Kali Terakhir Kulihat Wajahmu

We've received an email from a retired staff of our company last week. He told about his feeling about leaving this national oil company. I was quite impressed and shocked on how sentimental he is.He was known as doa' reciter in the office and his obedience to religion. He told us that he has created a blog, maybe to express his feeling and spend his time. He has related his feeling about leaving the company with a song by Uji Rashid titled 'Kali Terakhir Kulihat Wajahnya'. I liked this song.

Kali Terakhir Kulihat Wajahmu Lyric by Uji Rashid


Dalam dakapan senja
Kurenungi sinar matamu
Berat rasa melepaskan
Dikau pergi

Dingin hembusan bayu
Lemah longlai langkah kakimu
Lambaianmu kian jauh
Dari mata

( chorus )
Malangnya...
Bencana menimpa
Kau telah pergi untuk selamanya
Tak kembali

Pada saat terakhir
Kumelihat paras wajahmu
Kau bisikkan hanya sayang
Kepadaku...

( repeat chorus )

His blog made me feel to continue 'blog writing' after not posting anything in this 'telukbelitung' about one year plus several months. I thought my blog was deleted from blogspot.com. Luckily When I signed in, it was still there.Hehe..

Just thinking..

“We fear that we are inadequate, but our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves: ”Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be these things? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world.

There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people around you won't feel insecure.

We are all meant to shine as children do. We are born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically releases others."

Thank you..

I would like to thank her for everything she did for me. Thank you for loving me. I know she love me and so am I. I hope it will be everlasting. I love her cook. I love her kindness, and her affection to kids. I like her manners towards me even sometimes annoy me. I don’t know whether we’ve similarity but I feel so lucky that she try to do the best for the sake of ours.

She keeps telling me that her love towards me not as much as mine. How could she felt like that? I want her to know that I love her as much as hers. I know she try to get romantic quotes from me. I’m not such a dull guy who just recurrently quotes a lot of bombastic love idiom for the reason to catch the attention of their partner fervor of love.

She was kind of proud because of having me. She always told me about that. Sometime when we were having an argument, she accused me to be unlucky because of being her partner. It was actually not true .And I always try to deny it. She seemed begging me to coax and soothe her. But pity on her, she got nothing. For all of these, I’m sorry. I have no intention to hurt her.

The main message in this writing is to thank her for the kindness towards me and for everything she did for the sake of ours. I hope she knows that I love her as much as hers.